Tuesday, April 1, 1980

April 1980 - From my Journal


April 1, 1980

Today is April Fool's Day.  Only 8 more days until we get our new baby.  I'm really excited, but kinda scared too.  Rog and I were alone for 8 months before Ambure, and we had her for 9 1/2 months, then we have been alone for a year and 3 months.  So that makes almost 2 years alone and although we enjoyed every minute of Ambure's stay with us, it's still kinda scary for me to accept all this responsibility of a baby again.  Now don't get me wrong, I want this baby with all my heart.  But Roger and I have adapted and grown towards each other and we're very close now.  I hope that this baby will bring us even closer, and not apart.  In a week from now I'll probably be just checking into the hospital.  I'm also scared of all the pain I'll be going through, but I try not to think about it.  I've really got allot accomplished since I've quit work and stayed home.  I've been able to fix up the apartment really cute and homey like.  All the baby things are ready!!  Today I'm kinda bored because I got everything all spic and span yesterday.  Layne and Susan are moving today.  We helped them a little last night. (This move was to a home on the Island Road )

April 8, 1980

Well, tomorrow's the big day!!  In just 10 short hours Roger and I will be the proud parents of a new little soul.  I'm so happy, scared, and excited all at the same time.  They did the amniocentesis on me this morning, and it really hurt, but I'm glad we know for sure that the baby's lungs are all right.  Roger is so good to me, and I love him so much!!  The baby has the hiccups right now.  I can't believe that I will be holding him or her in my arms so soon.  What will it look like?  Boy or Girl?  Hair or bald?  So many questions.  I worry that we will lose this lone like Ambure.  I pray God will be with me and comfort me.  I haven't forgotten little Ambure.  In fact I told Roger I expect to have them wheel her in to us instead of this baby.  Zana Wood, had a baby boy today.  Ann Wardell hasn't gone yet.  The nurses are nice to me, and I am getting along fine here at the hospital.

April 9, 1980 - Amanda Rich was born

April 9, 1980

Well I just had my baby, a beautiful, gorgeous, beautiful baby girl.  I wanted a girl SO bad!!  It was so  neat when they pushed her out, and I said, "What is it?", and the doctor said, "Heck, you can't tell by the ears!"  Roger got kinda sick, and had to go out, but the nurses brought her back to me and laid her on my chest and I kissed her.  She is SO TINY, only 6 pounds, 8 ounces, and only 18 inches long.  She has curly black hair all over her head.  We will name her Amanda Rich, and just like the song says, she will light up our life.  I thank God for letting us have a perfect, healthy baby.  I prayed so hard that everything would be all right.  I love Ambure too, and we won't forget her ever.  This baby will know she has a sister up in heaven.



April 11, 1980 (morning)

Today is Friday.  Amanda is so adorable, and she's nursing so well.  I'm so proud of her, she is the perfect little angel.  Her hair is so dark, and it looks like a little cap on her head.

(evening)

Boy, today sure turned out bad.  Dr. Gardner came in and said Amanda has lost down to 6 pounds, 1 ounce.  It really worries me because she's been nursing so well. I'm getting so much conflicting advice from so many nurses.  One says my milk is in, one says it's not.  One says I nurse too long,  another says cut back.    Amanda has yet to really cry when she's around me, and I worry about that.  The Percodan pain killers I'm taking, goes through me to Amanda and that's why I think she sleeps so much.  Everything's got me SO worried.  I'm not nervous with her, but I worry that everything is not all right.  I love her so much, and I can't bear anything to be wrong.  Maybe tomorrow will be better.

April 12, 1980

Today IS better.  Dr. Gardner came in first thing this morning and said that Amanda gained, instead of lost an ounce.  Oh, that makes me so happy.  My milk has come in and I'm kinda uncomfortable.  Amanda nursed really good last night, but this morning she didn't do so good. She fell asleep.  I'm kinda feeling weird today,  and I wish Rog was here.  I'm kinda nervous and unsettled and tired.  My stitches hurt allot and I don't like to walk.  Last night Bishop Rees asked Rog to be the Aaronic Priesthood Secretary.  Rog wasn't too excited, but he accepted and I'm glad.  This will require him to be to ALL his meetings , ALL the time, which will be good for him.  But he won't get to come to Sunday School with me anymore.
I'm finally getting out of the hospital tomorrow.  I'm really getting bored up here.  I hope I can nurse Amanda good, so she'll gain and be a satisfied happy baby.  She is prettier everyday.  Her hair is fixed so cute with a little ribbon.  She's got so many presents too. 
4 sleep-n-play outfits, 1 pair booties, one sunsuit, a tank top & shorts and a beautiful quilt. I've got 2 planters, one from Roger, and one from Linda, Lynette & Layne & families.  Mom's looking for me a baby book for Amanda, just like Ambure's.  Well Amanda is starting to wake up now and I better get her.

April 27, 1980

I thought I'd better sit down and write since I haven't for such a long time.  I've been so busy with Amanda, and getting settled back at home that I've neglected writing in this journal.  Mandy is getting cuter every day, and I really think she's growing allot!  Her little legs are getting stockier, and she's filling out really well.  She is the best baby!  She hardly ever cries, and when she does it's only  because she's hungry.  We haven't given her a pacifier yet, and I don't think she'll need one.  I'm still nursing, and I LOVE IT!  It makes me feel so close to her, and I know she's getting enough because she's so satisfied, and she sleeps so good.  Sometimes at night, she sleeps up to 6 1/2 hours at a time, and I only have to get up once with her.  Mandy's cord fell off when she was a week and 3 days old.  That's early compared to Ambures falling off after she was a month old!  Amanda likes being bathed (I think).  She opens her eyes up wide, and thinks "Oh my heck, what-cha doin' to me momma?"  Roger is so cute with her, I can't believe it!  It makes me so happy to see him with her.  He always wants to hold her and pick her up and he even fed her a bottle once when I was eating.  I think we both realize how precious she is and how one minute we can have her and the next she could be gone like Ambure.  Ambure's death has made us really appreciate how lucky we are to have a baby, and Roger and I both love Mandy so much, it's almost unbelievable.  Today is Sunday.  Roger is to Priesthood meeting and is taking care of his new job (Aaronic Priesthood Secretary).  I'm so glad he accepted this responsibility, and I'm sure it will help him grow in the gospel.  We may have some good news tomorrow.  Mountain Fuel has released a man, and if they decide to rehire someone in his place, Roger will have the job.  That is what they told Uncle Norris.  But they might not rehire anyone.  We will just keep our fingers crossed, and not get our hopes up too high.  We are really hurting for money.  We had to tell Loosli's we couldn't pay the rent for another week.  Roger is painting the outside of the house this week.  It has been beautiful weather these past 2 weeks.  I hope summer is finally here.  My stitches are healing good,  and I hope to start exercising soon, so I can get into my clothes for summer.  Linda &  LuAnn gave us an umbrella stroller for Amanda.  We put her in it, this morning and I think she liked it.

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