April
1, 1980
Today
is April Fool's Day. Only 8 more days
until we get our new baby. I'm really
excited, but kinda scared too. Rog and I
were alone for 8 months before Ambure, and we had her for 9 1/2 months, then we
have been alone for a year and 3 months.
So that makes almost 2 years alone and although we enjoyed every minute
of Ambure's stay with us, it's still kinda scary for me to accept all this
responsibility of a baby again. Now
don't get me wrong, I want this baby with all my heart. But Roger and I have adapted and grown
towards each other and we're very close now.
I hope that this baby will bring us even closer, and not apart. In a week from now I'll probably be just
checking into the hospital. I'm also
scared of all the pain I'll be going through, but I try not to think about it. I've really got allot accomplished since I've
quit work and stayed home. I've been able
to fix up the apartment really cute and homey like. All the baby things are ready!! Today I'm kinda bored because I got
everything all spic and span yesterday.
Layne and Susan are moving today.
We helped them a little last night. (This move was to a home on the
Island Road )
April
8, 1980
Well,
tomorrow's the big day!! In just 10
short hours Roger and I will be the proud parents of a new little soul. I'm so happy, scared, and excited all at the
same time. They did the amniocentesis on
me this morning, and it really hurt, but I'm glad we know for sure that the
baby's lungs are all right. Roger is so
good to me, and I love him so much!! The
baby has the hiccups right now. I can't
believe that I will be holding him or her in my arms so soon. What will it look like? Boy or Girl?
Hair or bald? So many
questions. I worry that we will lose this
lone like Ambure. I pray God will be
with me and comfort me. I haven't
forgotten little Ambure. In fact I told
Roger I expect to have them wheel her in to us instead of this baby. Zana Wood, had a baby boy today. Ann Wardell hasn't gone yet. The nurses are nice to me, and I am getting along
fine here at the hospital.
April
9, 1980 - Amanda Rich was born
April
9, 1980
Well
I just had my baby, a beautiful, gorgeous, beautiful baby girl. I wanted a girl SO bad!! It was so
neat when they pushed her out, and I said, "What is it?", and
the doctor said, "Heck, you can't tell by the ears!" Roger got kinda sick, and had to go out, but
the nurses brought her back to me and laid her on my chest and I kissed
her. She is SO TINY, only 6 pounds, 8
ounces, and only 18 inches long. She has
curly black hair all over her head. We
will name her Amanda Rich, and just like the song says, she will light up our
life. I thank God for letting us have a
perfect, healthy baby. I prayed so hard
that everything would be all right. I
love Ambure too, and we won't forget her ever.
This baby will know she has a sister up in heaven.
April
11, 1980 (morning)
Today
is Friday. Amanda is so adorable, and
she's nursing so well. I'm so proud of
her, she is the perfect little angel.
Her hair is so dark, and it looks like a little cap on her head.
(evening)
Boy,
today sure turned out bad. Dr. Gardner
came in and said Amanda has lost down to 6 pounds, 1 ounce. It really worries me because she's been
nursing so well. I'm getting so much conflicting advice from so many
nurses. One says my milk is in, one says
it's not. One says I nurse too
long, another says cut back. Amanda has yet to really cry when she's
around me, and I worry about that. The Percodan
pain killers I'm taking, goes through me to Amanda and that's why I think she
sleeps so much. Everything's got me SO
worried. I'm not nervous with her, but I
worry that everything is not all right.
I love her so much, and I can't bear anything to be wrong. Maybe tomorrow will be better.
April
12, 1980
Today
IS better. Dr. Gardner came in first
thing this morning and said that Amanda gained, instead of lost an ounce. Oh, that makes me so happy. My milk has come in and I'm kinda
uncomfortable. Amanda nursed really good
last night, but this morning she didn't do so good. She fell asleep. I'm kinda feeling weird today, and I wish Rog was here. I'm kinda nervous and unsettled and
tired. My stitches hurt allot and I
don't like to walk. Last night Bishop
Rees asked Rog to be the Aaronic Priesthood Secretary. Rog wasn't too excited, but he accepted and
I'm glad. This will require him to be to
ALL his meetings , ALL the time, which will be good for him. But he won't get to come to Sunday School
with me anymore.
I'm
finally getting out of the hospital tomorrow.
I'm really getting bored up here.
I hope I can nurse Amanda good, so she'll gain and be a satisfied happy
baby. She is prettier everyday. Her hair is fixed so cute with a little
ribbon. She's got so many presents
too.
4
sleep-n-play outfits, 1 pair booties, one sunsuit, a tank top & shorts and
a beautiful quilt. I've got 2 planters, one from Roger, and one from Linda,
Lynette & Layne & families.
Mom's looking for me a baby book for Amanda, just like Ambure's. Well Amanda is starting to wake up now and I
better get her.
April
27, 1980
I
thought I'd better sit down and write since I haven't for such a long
time. I've been so busy with Amanda, and
getting settled back at home that I've neglected writing in this journal. Mandy is getting cuter every day, and I
really think she's growing allot! Her
little legs are getting stockier, and she's filling out really well. She is the best baby! She hardly ever cries, and when she does it's
only because she's hungry. We haven't given her a pacifier yet, and I
don't think she'll need one. I'm still
nursing, and I LOVE IT! It makes me feel
so close to her, and I know she's getting enough because she's so satisfied,
and she sleeps so good. Sometimes at
night, she sleeps up to 6 1/2 hours at a time, and I only have to get up once
with her. Mandy's cord fell off when she
was a week and 3 days old. That's early
compared to Ambures falling off after she was a month old! Amanda likes being bathed (I think). She opens her eyes up wide, and thinks
"Oh my heck, what-cha doin' to me momma?" Roger is so cute with her, I can't believe
it! It makes me so happy to see him with
her. He always wants to hold her and
pick her up and he even fed her a bottle once when I was eating. I think we both realize how precious she is
and how one minute we can have her and the next she could be gone like
Ambure. Ambure's death has made us
really appreciate how lucky we are to have a baby, and Roger and I both love
Mandy so much, it's almost unbelievable.
Today is Sunday. Roger is to
Priesthood meeting and is taking care of his new job (Aaronic Priesthood
Secretary). I'm so glad he accepted this
responsibility, and I'm sure it will help him grow in the gospel. We may have some good news tomorrow. Mountain Fuel has released a man, and if they
decide to rehire someone in his place, Roger will have the job. That is what they told Uncle Norris. But they might not rehire anyone. We will just keep our fingers crossed, and
not get our hopes up too high. We are
really hurting for money. We had to tell
Loosli's we couldn't pay the rent for another week. Roger is painting the outside of the house
this week. It has been beautiful weather
these past 2 weeks. I hope summer is
finally here. My stitches are healing
good, and I hope to start exercising
soon, so I can get into my clothes for summer.
Linda & LuAnn gave us an
umbrella stroller for Amanda. We put her
in it, this morning and I think she liked it.
