September
6
- Shirley Lannefeld's daughter's wedding
9
- Relief Society
10
- Amanda stitches in her head
10
- Religion class
16
- Lisa nails
18
- Ward party
21
- Primary program
23
- Back to school night
27
- Stake Conf.
September
2, 1986
Yesterday
was Labor Day and we rode up around the Uintas. Rog and I, Amanda, Zac and my mom. I'm so glad she's back from California. I've missed her, but I didn't realize how
much. She takes good care of us. I would like to grow to be like her. Tonya isn't enjoying being back at all. She misses all her friends. I wish I could tell her things and she would
listen. She is so like I was, striving
after material and popular things.
Exciting, glamorous, tempting, WRONG things. She is so like me, unteachable. You couldn't tell me anything. I had to learn for myself. With MUCH sorrow. I worry about my kids. I want to teach them and raise them right
with an inner feeling to rely on our Heavenly Father and pray to him and to
seek the things of God and not of the world.
How can I do this? I must. I must
find a way. I want my children to come
unto Heavenly Father and know that He is, and that He loves them.
September
4, 1986
I
made it up at 5:00 a.m. today and read the Book of Mormon for 1/2 hour and read
"Faith Precedes the Miracle" for 20 minutes and now I'll write in my
journal for 10 minutes. I wish I could
take this hour EVERY DAY. It helps me so
much. Heavenly Father is helping me also. He helps me control my thoughts and
feelings. He helps me sort things out
and put them into perspective. I want to
do the things he would have me do and go on and live by faith.
September
8, 1986
Well,
the garage floor finally got poured today, and the dogs got in it and got it
all messed up. I was really upset. They are tied up out back now. I would like to get rid of them. I'm tired, so I guess I'll go to bed.
September
28, 1986
Today
is Stake Conference and Zac's birthday.
Last night was our women's session.
It was very good. It was on HOPE. I really need it. I love my Heavenly Father and Jesus and I'm
so glad that I am learning more about Him.
I'll never give up. Everything will be okay and will
all work out. I will go on and on. I will make Him proud of me. He has given me so much. I owe Him all I can make of myself and I'll
do my best. He loves me just the way I
am, and He knows I'll make myself better.
September
29, 1986
Today is a bad day!! It's 10:20 a.m., and I
haven't done a thing. I'm just laying
around doing nothing. I'm not used to being home. I can't make myself get up and get
going. Ever. I'm so depressed today. I need to pray, but I know Heavenly Father
must get tired of always listening to my troubles and sadness. I try to perk up. I was gonna start today to exercise and get
back in shape, but I can't seem to. I know the devil works on me so much.
